Well this is a depressing reason to re-boot this blog.
After a few months of desolation where I felt I would only be treading on old ground. I feel impulsed to now.
But after tonight’s results, City will be treading on ground we haven’t traipsed on for nearly 48 years.
I’ve been a City fan for all my life. Born and bred in the city walls, almost bought up on the West Terrace and then made street smart through experiences at the Ricoh, but a City fan through all of it.
From Dion Dublin to Gary McSheffrey; Darren Huckerby to Carl Baker; Gordon Strachan to Andy Thorn;
As the incorrect graffiti art goes- I woz there.
But through all that, this is the lowest.
A club run by owners, apparently. It’s hard to stay restrained, something Andy Thorn has managed to do when in the public sphere on TV & Radio.
Thorn’s own future will be questioned between now and August but for me, he may just get a shot at bouncing this side back into the Championship.
He was someone who earnt plaudits from his predecessors for unearthing talent like Aron Gunnarsson, Gary Madine, Danny Fox & Scott Dan to name a few but fell into a job in a situation no-one would wish upon themselves.
He saw a player leave to a rival due to money and security. He saw his mid-season top scorer leave for 7 figures and was replaced by an untried youth from football’s money rich-on loan.
He has fought against the tide from almost the get go. He has got things wrong, he would probably admit it himself, but with the vultures circling on the best the squad has to offer. The youth could prosper in the 3rd tier.
His earlier mentioned restraint (minus tonight’s post-match presser) has been exemplary. When his bosses sat behind him, he somehow kept the air clean when the fans’ eyes were on him.
The club which once boasted wins over the powerhouses of the country’s game on a yearly basis now dwindles along unspectacularly with a worrying fall from grace seeing no upturn on the horizon.
There are some clubs’ fans who will revel in this fall, but the self-depricating Sky Blue Army will be at the Huish Park’s, Banks’ Stadium and Griffin Park’s of the world next season.
That means more than anything at a time where spirits are low in mind but are being cracked open to soothe.
The off-the-field plight of the club will be the focus of the incredibly loyal Sky Blue diehards, some are already writing obituaries, this could even be construed as one.
I’m writing an hour after the loss against Milwall and the wound is open. I followed from afar in recent times with Univerisity priorities keeping me away from a spring night at the Ricoh, but calls from my dad at the game and from friends on social network showed it all.
A mix of depression to then finding positives in this plight.
Whatever happens, Thorn who has kept us in the fight for survival until the penultimate week of the season, with a side stripped of most of its worth and his back rarely had by his bosses.
He may be given his orders as the ‘owners’ look for a way of trying to show they are doing something to fight this fall.
He has been able to add 3. Count them. 3 players on ‘full time’ deals. Two being Goalkeepers. One being a striker who has had fitness problems all year.
When we went to Bristol last week, they made 6 changes with the options they had, we made 2 with the options we had. One being a walking wounded striker who could barely move.
Thorn will probably get ‘future endeavoured’ but, that isn’t the move the fans want more than anything. The hierachy are more than aware of what is wanted, but I fear. Unless they call in help, it may be as we are come early-August or worse.
If that is the case then the loyalty will be further tested and the body-blows which comes with being a CCFC fan in recent years will come with more ferocity and regularity.
It’s likely that some of the players are already planning their exit routes out the club, but we’ll see what happens. Professional hurt will stick with this set of players no matter if they are here or not next year.
I’m going to blog more over the summer and will look at the squad we may have in the coming weeks and the outlook for next season.
But for now this slightly emotional, untethered thoughts and opinion on the running of MY club. But this is MY club and come August, I’ll be going to places I probably couldn’t of found on a map as a kid watching messers Huckerby, Dublin and co.
But here I sit, researching the away day experiences I will face next season.
I’m listening to talk radio and the national spotlight is on the club once more as our manager makes a last stand it seems.
Calls for off-the-pitch overhaul, players overhaul have been long standing. But as ever, falling on deaf ears and finally it seems it’s come to one thing.
Apologies for the low spirit of this blog and roundabout way of going about this, but it’s what this club does to you!
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